Oil on Canvas, 84” x 60” ( 153cm x 213cm ) 2018
What does it mean to be “man enough”? The uncertainty around this question is something that I have carried with me as long as I can remember. I believe this stems from never being able to fully comprehend my sexual orientation as a gay man. I have never felt as though I have been able to truly grasp who I am, my identity has always felt like something that evades me; uncertain and shifting never really making sense. While I have never felt that being gay defined who I am as a person I have always felt as though it precluded me in some way from ever fitting into what it really means to be a man.
The impetus for this series of paintings grew out of my interest in the works of the Rococo movement of the 18th century. It was a very decorative and theatrical style with a great deal of focus on the bodies of women. They were portrayed in a way to make them seem frivolous and vain. I have been considering the parallels with contemporary representation of males today.
The women were used in a way to show the social status of their patrons in their best light. Intentionally devoid of political or religious symbolism, portraying a [feminine] ideal, the frivolity and eroticism of its aristocratic patrons. There is a parallel to the way that we curate and disseminate images of ourselves through social media platforms -- often to masses of people -- projecting a seductive and idealized version of the self. Though, there is an inherent vulnerability that exists in the need for validation, that contradicts the outward projections of strength and virility. I am interested in this “un-reality” and conflating notions of masculinity and vulnerability.
Portrait of the artist as a young man, Oil on Canvas, 18” x 24” ( 46cm x 70cm ) 2018
Premeditated, Oil on Canvas, 60” x 70” ( 122cm x 154.5cm ) 2018
The Search, Oil on Canvas, 30” x 40” ( 76cm x 102cm ) 2018
Disgrace, Oil and Spray Paint on Canvas, 82” x 70” ( 178cm x 208.5cm ) 2018
Mask 1, Oil on Canvas, 48” x 30” ( 122cm x 76cm ) 2018
Shame, Oil on Canvas, 18” x 24” ( 46cm x 70cm ) 2018
The Idol, born to die, Oil on Canvas, 70” x 82” ( 208.5cm x 178cm ) 2018
Two Figures, Oil on Canvas, 60” x 70” ( 122cm x 154.5cm ) 2018
Portrait of Zach, Oil on Canvas, 14” x 11” ( 35.5cm x 28cm )
Mask 3, Oil on Canvas, 48” x 30” ( 122cm x 76cm ) 2018
Disregard, Oil on Canvas, 8” x 6” ( 20cm x 15cm )
The Shadow, Oil on Canvas, 8” x 6” ( 20cm x 15cm ) 2018
The Boys, Oil on Canvas, 60” x 70” ( 122cm x 154.5cm ) 2018
Mask 2, Oil on Canvas, 48” x 30” ( 122cm x 76cm ) 2018
The Body, Oil on Canvas, 30” x 24” ( 70cm x 76cm ) 2018
Andrew, Oil on Canvas, 16” x 12” ( 40.5cm x 30.5cm ) 2018
The Stranger, Oil on Canvas, 14” x 11” ( 35.5cm x 28cm ) 2018
Alejandro, Oil on Paper, 16” x 12” ( 40.5cm x 30.5cm ) 2018
Andre, Oil on Paper, 16” x 12” ( 40.5cm x 30.5cm ) 2018
Self-Portrait as the Lover (after Bacon), Oil on Paper, 9” x 12” (30.5cm x 23cm) 2018